fleaman uk
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how to deal with a break up.please help?
by fleaman uk in.
i dont start many topics,but i have just split up with my longterm and wonderful girlfriend.i have never experienced such a black,deathlike feeling in my entire 35 years on this planet.i guess that is normal.. i cant see beyond this evening.i cant imagine loving again..ever.sorry for the drama(its really not like me),but i am at the end of my tether.. no-one could ever replace that wonderful,caring,generous sweet natured girl.. devastated and in need of any advice.. (sorry all,i know there are far worse things happening in the world)
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I hope this memorial doesnt backfire ...........
by fleaman uk inwell,ive decided to go tomorrow night after all.not to my local cong but another one in the city where i have a very good friend and a few distant family members.i dont agree with much of the orgs teachings or promotions,but i do believe in jesus and really just have a very,very powerful urge to pay my respects to him.. i have been telling my "worldly"girlfriend about the religion and naturally,she is quite interested as this was part of my life since an early age.. blow me down she really wants to come with me!so when she walks into the hall tomorrow and gets a very warm welcome it will possibly shock her,after some of the stranger stories i have told her about the faith(vague stories including no xmas,disfellowshipping,no after school activities etc).i have told her that the welcome she receives will be warm and imho genuine too.she is quite a spiritual person anyway and will enjoy the occasion.. my worry would be that she will enjoy it too much and go to a follow up.it is quite probable.she has never had anything to do with jw,s before, till going out with yours truly .. i,m interested in your comments?.
thanks for listening.
flea.
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so what comes next........
by fleaman uk inive had a day off work today and have been reflecting on stuff like never before.. ive had the strong jw belief system from pretty much the word go.then in 1995 that all started to end with the change in generation.i couldnt believe what i was hearing!at the time i was an ms and reg pioneer and 100% in my beliefs.overtures were made to me about being an elder.. the doubts continued until about 3 years ago,i couldnt stands no more (in best popeye voice)and dropped out the religion with a bang!i had long relinquished the pioneering and the ms.. what came next?well for a year a completely hedonistic existance..boy,did i make up for lost time with the beer and the laydeez.i did it far away tho..still worried about the elders.then i became more blase..what right did those elders have over what i chose to do?
?i celebrated xmas..did birthdays,fell out spectacularly with parents,got a great gf,split up,got back together again..all in all a bit of a busy period!.
but now its hit me.. ive lost an entire belief system,one i adhered too before i saw the light.now im completely nihilistic,nearly 35 (half way thru 3 score years and 10)and am genuinely concerned about what the future holds!.
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"i enjoyed your talk Brother"
by fleaman uk ini was musing about being a jw the other day.im not scarred by it like many,i dont hate anyone in my old cong..theres a couple of idiotic elders of course,but in the main my biggest thing when i think of my past life is the farsical nonsense of it all!.
meeting attendance,knocking on doors...oh dear.. one of the stupidest things was being required to do talks.i mean,come on who really used to listen to that drivel..i mean really listen?.
i was an ok speaker,nothing briliant,competent ..even gave a pub talk once when all the elders were on a jolly up at elders school.. it occurred to me how robotic bros and sis were when it came to giving praise!no matter how crap the talk was,one would always get a "i really enjoyed your talk brother".every time.without fail.i know they were being nice,i used to say it all the time too.my dad once said it to me and i asked him what he liked most about it?he admitted he didnt remember what it was even about.i dont remember in 30 years man and boy ever enjoying a talk.. yep,its a nonsense religion alright.full of braindead robots.. did anyone actually pay close attention and really enjoy the "food"from the platform?
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Hello...a familiar story...
by fleaman uk inhi all,i have been reading the forum avidly for about 6 months,what a great idea it is !
!ive done the careful fade thing for a while and all is good,i have been left alone,albeit with the usual waffle from parents et al....and now ive decided to say hi to all the wonderful people on the site.......hi!!.
i was raised in the t***h since 6 and had the hell that is school etc,the crap job etc,but for the last few years,realizing it was a joke,bettered myself (i think)and am having a blast!!.
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Nice Melons at assemblies....
by fleaman uk ingrowing up in the 70,s and 80,s i remember at the dc in twickenham ,london ,the 1 item of food that was always liked by us kids was a slice of melon!!
i think they were about 4 tickets each (??
)...i must have been very easily pleased because that was a rare highlight... (i never liked the drama much even as a kid).. i dont have too many bad memories of the religion,but i think that even little things like doing away with food at conventions made me question what the hell i was doing in it.
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Quick Build hard hats
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in england about 5/6 years ago a directive kicked in that you were not allowed to put anything on your hard hat at the qb...apparently bro,s were putting all kinds of details down to ,er,attract the opposite sex....ms,rp etc!there were some desperate people out there...... any other crazy "hilarious"antics you remember at qb,s?
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British Museum
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in my past witness life ive done the jw tours etc.is it true they miss out anything that debunks the 607 theory?i want to look around the place to see for myself some time soon.. 607 is a no-no ,i know that.i just need to see for myself though.. has anyone here done a official tour ,with the intent of confirming for themselves the wt prophecies are false?
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Still scared!!
by fleaman uk ini have completely moved away from the wt teachings,i know they are wrong and i will live to old age (hopefully!
)and then die of old age...but every now and again ,i feel a terrifying sense of dread (truly terrifying ),that armageddon may just happen ,complete with strange planetary phenomena etc....oh well i guess thats the 30 years of constant,never ending doom and gloom,death and destruction starting from age 3.!..being an english chap,i tend to dismiss therapy etc,but im having second thoughts..... im probably not alone feeling like this?.
ps apologies if this thread has been covered before..